Kya zindgi h ye???

 Kal anjali ka birthday tha or sunil 2 din se mujhse naraz h mai samajh nhi pati hu ki aakhir unki narazgi ki wjah kya hoti h 

Kyuki kabhi kabhi bol bolty h ki bs apne bare m bta diya kro yahi kafi h or kabhi kabhi bolty h call kro bs msg mat kro or kabhi kabhi to ye bhi bolty h ki mai apko disturb nhi krunga apko msg nhi krunga..

Mai jab akele thi tab mai ye sochti thi ki sayad aisi ki baat jayegi meri zindgi na koi dost na koi apna na kisi se kuchh bolna or na kisi ko kuchh btana sari zindgi aise hi akele pan m beet jayegi meri zindgi ye mene accept kr liya tha ...

Fir mujhe sunil mile or unke pyaar ne mujhe itna change kr diya ki jo ladki kabhi kisi ke samne nhi khulti thi aaj tak kabhi kisi ko sorry to kya dekha bhi nhi kisi ki traf sunil ke pyar ne mujhe bilkul bdal diya..an mujhe duniya achhi lgne lagi thi mai sapne dekhne lagi thi mai sunil sapne dil ki baaty share krnelagi thi sunil pr apna haq jtane lagi thi....  

             Mujhe sunil ne kabhi bhi ye ehsas nhi hone diya ki mai kisi bhi pal akeli hu unhone hamesha mera saath diya h or har trah se mera saath diya....

Sunil se do dino se baat nhi hui h na call na msg or na hi sunil online aaye or na unhone mere bare m kuchh puchha mai kesi hu kya kr rhi hu kaha hu unhone kuchh nhi puchhaa😭 bahut akela pan mehsus hua mujhe..for bhi anjali ke birthday wale din mene sunil ko good morning wish kiya ki abhi sunil ka jo bhi gussa h sant ho gya hoga mujhe good morning bolinge sunil🙁

          Sunil mujhe bahut pyaar krty h or mai janti hu unhone mujhse baat nhi ki to vo bhi bahut dukhi hue honge..anjali sunil ke msg ka wait kr rhi thi ki sunil ek baar use birthday wish krenge.. use bahut confident tha ki sunil aainge or uneh anjali ka birthday yaad h...uska itna confident dekhkr mujhe lga bechari ka aaj dil na tut jaye isliye mene saam ko sunil ko msg krke bola ki use wish kr do kam se kam use achha lagega....

         Sunil ne anjali se phone pr baat bhi ki mgr un dino ne kya baat ki mene nhi suna mai bahr jakr baith gai...pta nhi unhone mere bare m anjali se puchha ya nhi..do din tak sunil ne koi baat koi msg nhi kiya tha mujhe andr se bahut akelapan 😭😭😭 mehsus ho rha tha..khana nhi khaya tha 2 dino se sir bahut dukh rha tha khali bs mummy ne khane khaty time mujhe ek niwala khila deti thi zabardasti or for khana khilati thi to mai bol deti thi mene khana kha liya h pet bhara hua h ya per m dard h kyuki mera sach m khane ka man nhi hota tha chai mummy pine ke liye deti h or pratha bnati h mgr mai pratha nhi khati bs  chai pii thi to pet m dard mehsus ho rha tha....

Sunil mujhse hamesha pehle bhaut pyaar se baat krty thy meri kabhi kisi baat ka bura bhi nhi manty thy..unhone kabhi mujhpr gussa nhi kiya hamesha mai uspr gussa krti thi fir bhi vo pyaar se mujhe mna lete thy 🙁 jab glti meri hoti thi or mai hi khana nhi khati thi to unke baar baar msg aaty thy khana khaya mene ya nhi meri tabiyat kesi h sab puchhty thy mere bare m🙁

      mai unse gussa hone ka natak zarur krti hu mgr unke ek baar mnane pr maan jati hu mai unse naraz nhi reh pati kabhi bhi..sunil meri life m aage to meri zindgi ka akela pan dur ho gya tha mai sach m life kaat nhi rhi thi ab life jeene lag gai thi mujhe unki yahi baat sabse achhi lgti thi ki vo mujhse kabhi naraz nhi hoty thy..mai chahe kese bhi unse bolu kisi bhi trah unse baat kru ya kitni bhi galtiya kr lu vo hamesha mujhse baat krty thy or khud mna bhi lete thy mujhe😭 unhone sach m jina sikhaya mujhe...

     Anjali ka birthday tha to sunil anjali ke liye cake laye thy or anjali bahut happy thi ki vo pehli baar cake cut kregi😊 or usko khush dekhkr mai bhi khush thi...or sunil aane wale thy ghar to meri jaan m thodi jaan aai..

        Mujhe to na bhukh lag rhi thi or na hi neend aa rhi thi aisa lag rha tha sach m mera time aa gya ab to saath le jayegi vo mujhe 😭 mgr sunil ke aane se thodi jaan aa gai meri waps.....

      Sunil cake laye to mai unse naraz hone ka dikhawa kr rhi thi ki unhone itne dino se mujhse baat nhi ki kya ek pal ke liye bhi unko meri yaad nhi aai.sunil ek baar mujhs bolty to sayad wahi ro deti m kyuki 3 dino se lgatar ro rhi thi or soi bhi nhi thi aakhen ekdum dukh rhi thi pta nhi kya ho rha tha mujhe...mgr sunil ke aane se mano meri zindgi waps aa gai h..

      Jab sunil aaye to mai waha se chali gai mene unki traf dekha bhi nhi kyuki mai ro deti sach m😭 unko dekhty hi ro deti m meri aakho se aasu nhi thamty  kyuki jo insaan ek min bhi mujhse baat kiye bina nhi reh sakta tha ab 2-3 din se lgatar unhone mujhse baat nhi ki or na msg ka reply diya ..Isla mflb Maine bahut hi badi glti ki h isliye mujhse sunil baat nhi kr rhe h ..sunil me aaty hi mai ghar m chali aai kyuki mummy ke samne aakhon m aasu aa jaty to unko bahut dukh hota..isliye mai ghar m andr aa gai unki traf bina dekhke...

                Mere papa mummy ko ye pasand nhi h ki cake wagera cut kre ya celebrate kre isliye anjali ne sunil se mna kr diya ki cake na laye jabki ye sab use bahut pasand h mai uske liye cake nhi laa pai kyuki fir papa gussa krty ki bekar m itne pese kharch kr diya or fir naraz hoty isliye mai uske liye cake nhi lai or uske liye mene kuchh bnaya bhi nhi andr se bahut bura lag rha tha mgr mene usko bhi ot khud ko bhi samjha liya ki ye sab khana achha nhi h nuksaan hoga fir kabhi mai uske liye laa dungi or vo bechari maan bhi gai....

   Sunil jab uske liye cake laye to mujhe achha lga ki kam se kam meri zimmedari unhone puri kr dii..anjali ka cake cut kraya mgr mere mummy papa ko ye sab achha nhi lgta isliye humne  zyada der na lgakr cake cut krwa diya..anjali to bechari theek se khush bhi nhi ho pai ki aise kon celebrate krta h birthday ki jiska birthday h subha se kisi ko kuchh pta nhi tha na koi uske janam din wagera ki khushi m tha.....

     Cake cut krne se pehle Maine socha sunil bhi us kamre m aainge to mai hi unko sorry bolungi or mujhe PTA h vo maan jainge mgr cake cut krne ke time pr aaye vo kamre m or mummy papa thy to mene usne zyada kuchh bola nhi bs itna bola ki aakr yaha pass m baith jao...jab vo nhi aaye to mujhe lga abhi bhi vo mujhse bahut naraz h...

         Anjali ne cake cut kiya pehli baar usne cake cut kiya to khushi ho rhi thi use or m bhi khush thi kyuki sunil mere samne khade thy mgr mere bolne pr bhi baithe nhi...unko jab mene cake diya to unhone pehle mujhe khilaya vo hamesha pehle mujhe hi khilaty h ....

Unke haath se sabke samne kha to liya mene mgr andr se itne aasuo se ro rhi thi m ki ab unko yaad aaya h ki mujhe khilane ke liye or mene khane ke bare m ab Yaad aaya unko....

           Mere papa or mummy ko ye pasand nhi aata ki sunil mujhse aise zyada baat kre ya aise khana khilaye or isliye hi mai sunil ko calls nhi kr pati hu kyuki papa fir kisi na kisi baat m gussa nikalty h ghar m kalesh kr dete h anjali ko dant dete h ya mummy ko dant dete h ya itna gussa krty h ki khana pina nhi khaty kabhi bhi agr unki baat talti hu mai ya anjali ya mummy koi bhi to unko itna gussa aata h bahut chilaaty h papa....

           Jab se hum mile h sabse ab tak agr Sunil aapne apna kaam or ghar pr dhyan diya hota or kam se kam apka apna ek ghar hota to mai mummy papa ko mna leti..kyuki pesa bhale hi kuchh na ho mgr yahi pesa logo se samman dilwata h jo log aaj apko kuchh nhi samajhty wahi log apke kaam badhne or apke kamiyab hone ke baad khud apke pass ainge pta nhi aap kab is baat ko samjhoge......age aap ye baat samajh jaty to sayad aaj m  apke saath hoti....

           Bachpan se bahut kuchh sha h mene jo apko bhi abhi tak nhi btaya jis din aap gussa hona chhod doge us din sayad mai ye dil ki baat apko bta Pau...

       Sunil fir jab ghar Jane lage to mummy ne ekdum bola ki per m chot lagi h mai jaldi se bahr gai or us time papa mummy wahi thy isliye kuchh puchh nhi pai....

      Raat ko sunil ne mere msg ka reply kiya mai us time unse baat krty waqt bahut roi ki kya mera itna bhi haq nhi rha ki aap mujhe bta pati ki apka accident hua h or itni sari chotagi h apke per m...mere bhaut zyada puchhne pr unhone btaya ki accident hua h..mujeh us waqt khud se bhaut ghin aa rhi thi ki mai jiski life m rhti hu hamesha vo dukhi hi rhta h.. mummy papa ko kabhi khush nhi kr pati hu m apni badi behn ko kabhi khushi nhi di mene apni choti behn ko bhi koi khushi nhi de pai m or ab sunil ko bhi aaj tak kabhi koi khushi nhi di mene 😭🤦‍♀️ mai itni manhus kyu hu...?

Vo insaan jo itna Sant itne achhy thy ki kabhi gussa nhi krty thy kisi baat pr or kabhi mujhse naraz nhi hoty thy kabhi mujhse ulta nhi bolty thy hamesha mujhe mnaty or sari baat btaty thy aaj itni sari chot lag gai unke or unhone mujhe btaya bhi nhi😭 mene kitna bdal diya unko..

Meri life m sunil ke aane se khushiya aa gai or mai unki life m gai to gussa pareshani tension ke alawa kabhi kuchh nhi de pai kabhi unse pyaar se baat tak nhi ki mene jab bhi sunil mile mai unse kabhi nhi bol pai ki mai unse kitna pyar krti hu kabhi mene unko pyaar se gale nhi lgaya🤦‍♀️mene unko kabhi ek pal ki khushi nhi di..

       Mujhe khud se bahut ghin aane lagi h ki kabhi ek bhi baat nhi mani mene or ab sunil ke itni chot lagi or mai is layak bhi nhi hu ki mujhse sunil ye baat share kr paty ki unke itni chot lag gai h🤦‍♀️😭😭 yaar mai kitni naseeb ki kamzor hu kabhi kisi ko khushi nhi de pai m....bhagwan bhi mujhe janam de kr pachhta rha hoga🙏

            Mere bahut puchhne pr Sunil ne btaya ki unke per m chot lagi h or unhone 6 goli khai h pain killer..or unhone dr. Se dwai nhi li mai kitni majboor hu ki unke saath dwai tak lene nhi jaa sakti hu m kesa pyaar h ye mera vo aadhi raat bhi mere liye khade h or m🤦‍♀️😭 khud pr hi tras aata h mujhe or bhaut ghin aati h khud se mai kitni gandi hu 🤦‍♀️ 

               Aaj sunil se baat krty krty subha ke 3 baj gye or unko 4 bje jana bhi h kaam h unko unhone mujhe sula diya or khud vo jagty rhe mene unko bola bhi so jao mgr sayad vo nhi soye thy...sunil ke btane se pehle mene mahesha se puchha ki apke bhaiya ke per m chot kese lagi mgr usko to pta hi nhi ki sunil ke per m itni chot lagi h usne bola mai subha btaunga puchhkr ki kese lagi chot... 

                Subha sunil sayad jaldi uth gye mere subha call ki thi 4.30 bje ke aas pass mgr pta nhi unhone ek bhi call recieve nhi ki sayad vo abhi bhi mujhse naraz h subha bhi unhone mujhe good morning wish nhi kiya ek bhi baar aisa kabhi nhi hota tha ki agr sunill jaldi uth gye h or mujhe good morning wish nhi kiya ho...

Mgr aaj unhone mujhse kuchh bola hi nhi mai maan sakti hu ki unko life m mene hamesha dukh hi dukh diye h or unki narazgi bhi sahi h mai hu hi is layak kyuki mai manhus hu kisi ko khushi nhi de sakti hu m🤦‍♀️ 

Sunil bahut achhy h mai roz mandir jati hu or bhagwan se unke liye prathna krti hu ki unko hamesha khush or theek rakhe... or ho sake to meri life m hamesha ke liye sunil de de nhi to meri life le le apne pass or kisi garib insaan ko de de jiske ghar m uski zarurat ho.....🙏