Meri zindgi ke kuchh pal

Ek ladki hu m or isliye mai ye apni life m manti or samajhti hu ki ladki koi bhi ho vo hamesha dugna krke hi deti h agr kisi se use pyaar milta h to puri duniya ka pyaar vo us insaan pr luta deti h or theek isi trah agr koi nafrat krta h to use bhi dugna hi krke deti h..

Ladkiyo ki is chhoti si life m vo chati h ki unka saath hamesha unka dhyan rakhe vo chhoti chhoti si bato pr unse naraz na ho..

Unse theek vese hi pyaar kre jese kisi bachhe se krty h unko theek vese hi sambhal jese koi bachha..

Apne sapno ki duniya mai bs ek pyaar hi to jise vo chati h ki uska husband usse kre..

Mere pass bhi mere sunil h jo mujhse itna pyaar krty h ki sayad mene bhi kabhi unsenhi kiya hoga..

Pyaar word to mai kabhi samajhi nhi or na samajhna chati thi kyuki pyaar wyaar sab se chid thi mujhe...

Aaj kal ki life m pyaar wyaar nhi hota yahi sab pta tha mujhe..

Mgr sunil ne mujhe is trah pyaar ka mtlb samjhaya ki ye pyaar kab mujhe ho gya pta hi nhi chala?? 

Mai pehle sunil se dur rhti thi or kabhi bhi unke saath kahi bhi nhi jati thi or na zyada baat krti thi.. or usni baat ka sidhe sidhe jwaab bhi nhi deti thi. 

Sunil or mai ek saath ek ofc m kaam krty thy.. bahut achhy din thy vo mujeh sabse achhi baat lgti thi sunil m vo kabhi bhi negative nhi sochty thy..

Maine na Jane kitni baar sunil se batmizi se baat ki unki bato ka ulta sidha jwaab deti thi.. or to or mai unse chhupti bhi thi ki kahi office se ghar jaty time mujhe rasty m naa mil jaye isliye mai chupkr ghar jati thi..

Magr na Jane  sunil ko kese pta chal jata tha ki mai ghar jaa rhi hu or vo rasty m mujhe mil jaty thy

Kabhi kabhi haath pkad kr scooty pr bitha lete thy or ghar chhodne jaty thy mujhe..mujhe ye sab isliye achha nhi lgta tha tab kyuki aaj kal ki is duniya m kisi pr bhi bharosa krna aasan nhi h or mai ek aisi ladki jise kisi se koi lena dena nhi bs limited bolna or apne kaam se kaam rakhna baki kisi se koi lena dena nhi..

Maine bahut baar sunil ko mna bhi kiya ki mere pichhe mat aaya kro mujhe akele ghar jana achha lgta h..

Magr vo kabhi bhi mujhe akele ghar Jane nhi dete thy hamesha mujhe ghar chhodne jaty thy or kabhi kabhi m chhupkr chali jati thi auto se ghar or sayad vo auto ka pura pta rakhty thy...

Fir jab m khana khaungi uske baad hi khana khaty thy na Jane aisa kyu krty thy..kitna mna kiya tha mene mujhe yaad h yaha tak ki mene yr jhuth bhi bola tha ki mere pehle se 4 dost h..

Uske baad bhi na Jane sunil mujhpr itna yakin kyu rakhty h..

Vo meri har chhoti baat ko manty bhi h aisa nhi h ki meri baato ko vo manty nhi h vo meri sari baaty manty bhi meri har chhoti se chhoti baat bhi manty h..

Ye sab mna krty krty na Jane mai kab sunil se pyaar krne lagi pta hi nhi chala.. or unki sabse achhi baat ki vo kabhi bhi negative nhi hoty ..

Or sach btau to m kabhi unse pyaar naa krti or Maine pura mind set kiya tha ki mai pyaar wyaar ke chakar m kabhi nhi padungi.. 

Mgr sunil ne itni kosish ki unhone itna pyaar diya mujhe meri har chhoti se chhoti baat meri ichhar sab na Jane kese pta chal jata h unko..

Or mai kabhi kabhi negative ho bhi jati hu to mujhe hamesha motive krty h or kabhi bhi negative nhi hone dete chahe koi bhi baat ho...

Mai bhagwaan ka sukhriya krti hu ki unhone mujhe apke layak samjha...

Pr abhi kuchh dino se sunil bahut pareshan h kyuki vo chaty h ki mai unke saath rhi mgr aisa bina family ki mrzi ke nhi ho sakta...

Kyuki kuchh sapne h jo meri family ne mere liye dekhe h or vo chaty h ki mai unke sapno ko pura kru...

Mummy papa ko mai mna bhi lu mgr abhi sunil ke pass apna ghar nhi h or job bhi itni achhi nhi 

Agr mai bhi koi achhi si job kr rhi hoti to hum dono milkr achha sa chhota sa ghar le lete or tab m apni or sunil ki baat mummy papa ke samne rakh sakti hu...

Mgr abhi is trah jab sunil bhi itni achhi job nhi krty h or mai bhi koi job nhi krti hu aise m mummy papa mujhe glat  samajh lenge...

Mai sunil ko ye btana chati hu ki har mummy papa apni beti ko khush dekhna chaty h or isliye vo chaty h ki jis bhi ladke se unki beti ki shadi ho vo kam se kam apne ghar m to baith sake shaadi ke baad . Uske pati ki kam se kam itni salary to ho ki aage agr unka parivaar badhe to koi pareshani naa ho....

Maine sunil ko ek baar ye samjhane ki kosish bhi ki thi ki hum dono milkr ek ghar le lete to humari life or easy ho jati mgr sayad unko lga ki pese ki wjah se mai unse ye sab bol rhi hu ...

Mujeh pese nhi chaiye mai to bs chati hu hum dono milkr kam se kam ek ghar le le chhota sa hi sahi mgr humara ghar hoga taki m bhi apne mummy papa ko ye bta saku ki ghar h humare pass mai apne ghar m jaungi koi kiraye ka ghar nhi hoga vo hum dono ka apna ghar hoga....

Sunil chaty h ki mai unke saath rhu or m khud bhi chati hu ki mai unke saath rhu ladki maa baap ki izzat kharab krke nhi...kyuki maa baap ka dil dikhane kaa paap mai kese kru unhone kya kya sapne dekhe honge mere liye.or mai apni khushi ke liye unke sare Sapno ko tod du....mai nhi kr paungi aisa...

kash ki mujhe sunil samjhe..

Isliye mai sunil se hamesha bolti hu ki mai unke saath hu or hum dono milkr bs ek ghar le lenge to sayad sab theek ho jayega ...

Mgr vo chaty h ki mai unke saath rhu.. aisa kese ho sakta h is trah maa baap ko chhodna kya sahi baat h kya mujhpr maa baap ka koi haq nhi h...?

Ab m badi ho gai hu to kya apni ichha or khushi ke liye unki izzat or unki khushiya sab barbad kr du..?nhi ye sayad m kabhi nhi kr paungi...meri mummy jo meri sabse achhi friend h unka dil m kabhi nhi dukha paungi kyuki unhone jo mere liye kiya h vo to mai kabhi marke bhi pura nhi kr sakti..

Isliye mai ye kr sakti hu ki sunil jo ab negative baaty sochty h kabhi kabhi yr sochty h ki sayad marne ke baad hum saath rhinge .... aisa nhi h mene jine ka sapna dekha h sunil ke saath or mai jina chati hu isliye mai chati hu ki sunil bhi positive soche....

Unki positive soch hi to mujhe sabse zyada pasand h..aise time m bhi uneh positive rhne ki zarurat h or mai puri mehnat kr rhi hu ki kash mujhe ek achhi si job mil jaye jisse hum dono milkr ek achha sa ghar le fir mai mummy papa se apni or sunil ki baat btau.

Tab sayad mummy papa ko itna bura nhi lagega kyuki vo bs yahi chaty h ki unki beti sukhi rhe....

Mai sunil ko ye nhi bol pati hu ki unka ghar hota to sayad hum dono ek saath ho jaty jisme mere or apke parents ki marzi bhi shamil hoti...kyuki vo bolty h ki saath jine m dikkate h to saath marke hi hum saath rahinge....ye negative baaty mujhe kabhi kabhi dra deti h kyuki meri wjah se aaj sayad sunil positive se negative sochne lage h...

Mai chhati hu ki kash sunil pehle ki trah positive ho jaye or hum dono milkr sari problem ka solution kr lenge.. 

Kyuki jab vo mujhe mna sakty h to unka is trah negative hona achha nhi lagta....

                    Kash ki mai sunil ko bta pati ki mai sunil se bahut pyaar krti hu or jis trah se vo pehle positive thy or hamesha meri chhoti chhoti baato m khush hua krty thy unki khushi dekhkr mai bhi har pal khush rhti thi vese hi aaj bhi mujhe unki zarurat h usi pyaar ke saath usi bharose or positivity ke saath.. or kash vo meri thodi zimmedari bhi samjhe jo meri h mere mummy papa ke liye .....

 

Mai sunil ko btana chati hu ki duniya m pyaar ko kabhi bhi peso se ya kya kisi bhi chiz se tola- mola nhi jaa sakta... agr mai  sunil se bolti hu ki apna ghar hona chaiye to iska mtlb ye nhi h ki mai peso se pyaar krti hu bilkul bhi aisa nhi h...  

mai bs itna samajhti hu ki humara ghar hoga to kal ko koi apko ye nhi bolega ki ek ladki ki kya zimmedari hoti h uske liye to ghar bhi nhi h usko rakhoge kaha .... 

Ye swaal kahi na kahi hamesha hota h ki kya h ladke ke pass ? 

Agr mere hi mummy papa ne puchh liya ki ek ghar to h nhi tu kaha jayegi to mai kya bolungi unko vo mere dushman to nhi h or unko puchhne ka pura haq h...unke is swaal ko khatam krne ke liye hi mai chati hu ki humara ek ghar ho or sunil ye bol paye mere mummy papa se ki apki beti ek ghar chhodegi to apne hi dusre ghar m jayegi or mai uska hamesha dhyan rakhunga.. 

Mai kabhi unse ye baaty dar ki wjah se nhi bol pati kyuki mujeh kahi na kahi is baat ka dar lgta h ki kahi meri koi baat aisi jo unki negativity ko bdha de or kuchh glat sochne lag jaye sunil to sayad mai zindgi m kabhi khud ko maaf nhi kr paungi.....

  

         Kash ki m sunil ko bta pati ki mere man m kitna sab h jo mai unko btana chati hu jese pehle btati thi jese pehle unse baty share krti thi kese pehle bina dre unse apne dil ki baaty krti thi vese ji mai aaj bhi unse khulkr baaty krna chati hu. Mata pita ki izzat ko bina chot pahuchaye unki izzat kharab na krty hue unki permission ke or support ke saath..

Sunil ke saath izzat ke saath rhna chati hu m or 

Unke kandhe pr sir rakhkr apni pareshani btana chati hu...Unke gale lag kr rona chati hu...unki bato pr hasna chati hu, unko apni baato se Hsana chati hu ... or unke saath rhna chati hu bina kisi majburi or bina kisi dar ke......