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           Kal 25-5 ok krti ka birthday tha..vo bahut khush thi or uski khushi m hum sab shamil ho gya thy... mere papa ko ye sab pasand nhi h ki unki betiya cake cut kre ya celebrate kre...            Meri family m papa mummy ko aisa lgta h ki sari duniya bs apne apne swarth se baat krti h..kirti ne mummy ko bola ki sunil bhaiya ko bula lete h..ek baar ke liye mummy ne kha ki papa se puchh lena fir call kr lena.. Tab mene kha ki agr aaj tumne bulaya nhi to aage se kisi bhi kaam ke liye mat bolna sunil se...mere papa ko pta nhi kyu kuchh bhi pasand nhi h unko bs ye pasand h ki sab unke under rhe or bs unki baat mane...              Mere aise bolne pr mummy ne permission de di ki call kr lena..ask sinha hi mai sunil ke saath kisi kaam se gai thi..tab go khush thy mgr pta nhi kyu unka behaviour change ho gya h...mujhe lgta h ki vo baat nhi rhi vo us waqt thi jab sunil mujhse bahut pyaar krty thy...

 Sunil ko kese btau mai ki mai unse  bahut pyar krti hu mgr hum dono ko badi ka aashirwaad bhi chaiye or unki khushi ke saath hi apna future sochna chaiye.....            Mai sunil ko ye kabhi samjha nhi pati hu ki vo mere saath rhna chaty h to mai bhi unke saath rhna chati hu...sunil hamesha yahi sochkr pareshan ho jaty h ki mai unke saath nhi rhti hu...             Mgr unko yr bhi samajhna chaiye ki hum dono ko apni life m satel hona padega ekdusre ke liye kyuki humeh saath m life jini h .... sunil ko apna koi kaam krna hi padega aakhir kab tak vo aise job krty rhinge apna kaam hona zaruri h..apna kaam or apna ghar zaruri h kyuki Hume zindgi bhar kiraye ke makan m nhi guzarni....             Sunil mere liye sab kuchh kr sakty to fir apna ghar kyu nhi le sakty ?...     Mai khoob pdhai krti hu taki meri ek achhi si nokri lag jaty or hum dono milkr ek ghar le le or aunil aona kaa...

         Jab koi apse pyaar nhi krta to aap uske liye sab kuchh krne ko taiyar rhty ho uski har baat apko achhi lgti h or vo insaan sabse special ho jata h...or jab us insaan ko apse pyaar ho jata h bahut bahut bahut pyaar tab AAP usse puchha chhudane lgty ho.....          Pehle apka pyaar hota h ki tum khush rho or mai hamesha apke saath hu kabhi apko dukhi nhi krunga or apke liye m hamesha free hu... mai puri raat apse baat kr sakta hu...aisa bolkr tum uska dil jeet lete ho 😭                     Aap pehle is insaan ko is trah pyar ki paribhasha btaty ho ki apse ek baat bhi nhi chhupati vo or aap use yakin dilaty ho ki saath rhne ke liye sab kuchh krunga..mgr baad m sab kyu bdal jata h 😭  Kyu andr ki baty jankr usko apna bnakr uska saath chhod dete ho aap...mai apse kabhi apni baat share nhi krti thi mujhe akele rhna pasand tha to apne aakhir kyu mere man ki bato ko janne ki ...

 Kuchh dino se mere or sunil ke beech thodi problem thi problem bhi aisi kyuki mai sunil se call pr baat nhi kr pati hu isliye..mere ghar m mummy papa or bahu behn har time mere pass rhty h isliye mai sunil se call pr baat nhi kr pati hu.. Isliye sunil thode naraz thy or upar se WhatsApp ki notification show nhi ho rhi thi isliye whatsaap call pta nhi chali...to sunil or naraz ho gye... Narazgi m sunil ne mujhe bola ki vo gaaw has rhe h ab is lockdown m itni bimari fel rhi h Corona ki aise m sagar krna or upar se sunil bol rhe thy ab waps nhi aaunga ye sunkr to mujhe bahut rona aaya ki yaar aise hi bol dete h sunil ki chhodkr chale jainge ek baar bhi mere barem nhi sochty h ... Uske baad sunil ne mujhe kha ki aaj vo gaaw jaa rhe h agr mai milna chati hu to 2 bje tak aa jau milne ke liye...mujhe itni zor se gussa aa rha tha mai usi time nikal gai ghar se 11.30 bje.. Dimaag m itni tension ho rhi thi ki mai rasta hi bhul gai 🤦‍♀️Haha se roz ka aana jana hota tha mera waha ka rasta bh...

 Kehty h kisi ko sachha dil se chaho to puri kanyaat tumeh usse milane ki kosish krti h.. hum apni life m zarur kisi ba kisi aise insaan ko chaty h jiske saath puri life bitana chaty h...        Mai bhi apni life sunil ke saath bitana chati hu apni puri life mgr usse pehle mai ye kese bhul jati hu ki meri kuchh zimmedariya h jisko pura krne ke liye mene khud se WADA kiya tha..mai itni swarthi kese ho sakti hu...            Mene khud se wada kiya tha ki meri life apni mrzi se jine ke liye puri zindgi baki h puri umar baki h magar abhi jo time h vo apno ke liye kuchh krne ka h...        Pyaar to vo khubsurat ehsas hjo har kisi ki life m nhi hota..mere pass vo amol pyar h jiske liye khuda ka dil se sukriya krti hu m...               Magar mene meri family ke liye jo khud se WADA kiya tha vo pura kiye bina mai kese apni life m aage badh sakti hu...mai us layak tab banna chati hu jab...

 Kal anjali ka birthday tha or sunil 2 din se mujhse naraz h mai samajh nhi pati hu ki aakhir unki narazgi ki wjah kya hoti h  Kyuki kabhi kabhi bol bolty h ki bs apne bare m bta diya kro yahi kafi h or kabhi kabhi bolty h call kro bs msg mat kro or kabhi kabhi to ye bhi bolty h ki mai apko disturb nhi krunga apko msg nhi krunga.. Mai jab akele thi tab mai ye sochti thi ki sayad aisi ki baat jayegi meri zindgi na koi dost na koi apna na kisi se kuchh bolna or na kisi ko kuchh btana sari zindgi aise hi akele pan m beet jayegi meri zindgi ye mene accept kr liya tha ... Fir mujhe sunil mile or unke pyaar ne mujhe itna change kr diya ki jo ladki kabhi kisi ke samne nhi khulti thi aaj tak kabhi kisi ko sorry to kya dekha bhi nhi kisi ki traf sunil ke pyar ne mujhe bilkul bdal diya..an mujhe duniya achhi lgne lagi thi mai sapne dekhne lagi thi mai sunil sapne dil ki baaty share krnelagi thi sunil pr apna haq jtane lagi thi....               ...

   🥰 Apne pyaar ke saath jina bahut badi khushi hoti h or har pal ye pyaar or badta rhta h..mai mere sunil se bahut bahut or bahut zyada pyaar krti hu .. Jab bhi mai akele hoti hu bs mera man naye naye sapne dekhne lagta h.apne man hi man m mai bahut sare sapne dekhne lagti hu har din har pal ek naya sapna dekhta h mera dil..         Kabhi kabhi mai khuli aakhon se hi sapne dekhti hu or fir khud hi un sapno ko sochkr hasne lagti hu..mai sunil ke saath ek aisi trip pr jana chati hu jaha mere or sunil ke alawa or koi naa ho ek aisi jgah jaha waterfall ho rha ho or hum dono ek saath baithe h or sunil mere liye ice cream laye h...vo khud mujhe ice cream khila rhe h.ye sapne kitne achhy lgty h or mai in sapno m aisi kho jati hu ki khud ka bhi hosh nhi rhta mujhe...    Mai sapno m dekhti rhti hu ki mai or sunil kisi thandi jgah gye h jaha snowfall ho rha h or hum dono ek saath baithe coffie pii rhe h..mai sunil ke kandhe pr sir rakhkr so rhi hu or unse...

 Ye baat bilkul sach h ki agr aap kisi se pyaar krty ho to use kabhi ye ehsas mat hone do ki aap usse kitna pyaar krty ho kyuki ye btane ke baad ki aap usse kitna pyar krty ho..apse pyar krne wala insaan soch leta h ab ise meri aadat ho gai h or mai ab chahe sahi kru ya glat ye mere alawa kahi or nhi jayega...    Pta nhi kyu aisa hota h ki jab hum kisi ko bahut khass manty h itna khass ki uske liye apni jaan tak de sakty tab vo insaan humare pyaar ka use is trah se krta h ki lgta h ki sayad humare pyaar m hi koi kami thi kyuki jab hum samne wale insaan se pyar or respect se baat krty h or badle m hum bhi bs pyaar chaty h thoda sa 5 min ka time chaty h to sayad samne wala insaan iska glat mtlb nikal lete h...        Meri roz sunil se baat hoti h WhatsApp pr mgr naa jane kyu ab unki bato m rukhapn aane lga h jab m unse pyaar nhi krti thi or unse baat na krne ke bhane talasti thi tab vo mujhse itna pyaar krty thy ki meri jhuth bato ko bhi jaty hasty sach ...

                      Kehty h agr kisi ki zindgi m pyaar or uska saath ho to life bahut easy ho jati h or khushiyo se bhar jati h or isse bda tohfa or koi ho hi nhi sakta. Pyaar sacha ho to khushi apni ho ya nhi ho mgr apni life jise maan liya h uski khushi ko dekhkr dil hamesha dua krta h ki is insaan ki khushiyo ko hamesha aise hi rakhna....      Mere pass bhi ek aisa insaan h jiske liye mere dil se hamesha duaee nikalti h.. or mai hamesha dua krti hu ki mujhe uski sari pareshani, sare gum, sari takleef mil jaye or badle m bs bhagwan use bahut khushiya de...    Pta nhi kabhi meri dua waha tak jati bhi hogi ya nhi mgr jo bhi dua ki h dil se ki h..    Life ka sabse bda tohfa jo God gift h vo h pyaar jo bina kisi bhaid bhaav ke bs dil jise apna maan leta h usse ho jata h..mujhe bhi sunil se hua h pta nhi kyu mgr naa chaty hue bhi mujhe sunil se pyaar ho gya.. Karib 2 saal pehle jab mai sunil se...

Ek ladki hu m or isliye mai ye apni life m manti or samajhti hu ki ladki koi bhi ho vo hamesha dugna krke hi deti h agr kisi se use pyaar milta h to puri duniya ka pyaar vo us insaan pr luta deti h or theek isi trah agr koi nafrat krta h to use bhi dugna hi krke deti h.. Ladkiyo ki is chhoti si life m vo chati h ki unka saath hamesha unka dhyan rakhe vo chhoti chhoti si bato pr unse naraz na ho.. Unse theek vese hi pyaar kre jese kisi bachhe se krty h unko theek vese hi sambhal jese koi bachha.. Apne sapno ki duniya mai bs ek pyaar hi to jise vo chati h ki uska husband usse kre.. Mere pass bhi mere sunil h jo mujhse itna pyaar krty h ki sayad mene bhi kabhi unsenhi kiya hoga.. Pyaar word to mai kabhi samajhi nhi or na samajhna chati thi kyuki pyaar wyaar sab se chid thi mujhe... Aaj kal ki life m pyaar wyaar nhi hota yahi sab pta tha mujhe.. Mgr sunil ne mujhe is trah pyaar ka mtlb samjhaya ki ye pyaar kab mujhe ho gya pta hi nhi chala??  Mai pehle sunil se dur rhti thi or kabhi bh...

 18.4.2021 Mai kabhi kabhi sochti hu ki kash mai ek ladka hoti kyuki mai kitni bhi kosish krne ke baad apni family ke liye kuchh nhi kr pati ek ladka hokr sayad m sab kuchh kr sakti thi apni family ke liye.. Ladki hona ek bahut bda dukh hota h. Ek ladki hone ke naty hum kabhi bhi apnii khvahisho ko bahr share nhi kr sakty.. zindgi ke har mor pr hamesha ladkiyo ko apni ichha ko dbana padta h.. life m zindgi m mai chati hu ki apni family ko ek aisi life du jo unhone kabhi ye socha h ki unka beta hota to vo unke liye ye sab krta.. Meri family mai sabse zyada bharosa mujhpr krty h mummy papa vo mujhpr itna bharosa krty h ki unko yakin h ki mai unka beta bankr dikhau.. Maine hamesha ye kosish ki kis trah apni mummy ke liye khushiya lau kis trah mai apne papa ko khushiya du.. Mai sunil se bahut pyaar krti hu sunil bhi mujhse bahut pyaar krty h.. sunil jab bhi mujhse naraz hoty h to ek dard sa hota h man m ki meri wjah se vo kitne pareshan h mgr mai kya kru mai bahut majbur hu.. Sunil jo ...

 21 April 2021             Aaj meri tabiyat thodi kharab h thoda sa zukham ho gya h isliye aaj mai der tak soti rhi. Sunil jo mujhse itna pyar krty h na Jane unko kese pta chal jata h ki meri tabiyat kharab h . Sunil or meri WhatsApp pr roz baat hoti h. Unka to man hi nhi lgta jab tak mai unse baat na kr lu.  Pta nhi vo kitna pyar krty h mujhse ki unka man hi nhi bharta kabhi mujhse baaty krty krty. Aaj jab subha mene sunil ko good morning wish ki to unko na Jane kese pta chal gya ki tabiyat kharab h meri bs fir kya mujhse call kro. Mujhr apse baat krni h. Mai apse call pr baat krunga??  Mai ghar m aise sunil se call pr baat nhi kr sakti hu kyuki mere mummy papa h bhai bhen h sabke samne m aise calls pr baat nhi kr sakti hu..  Sunil ko bhi ye pta h ki mai inse aise calls pr baat nhi kr sakti hu kyuki family bahut trust krti h mujhpr unko mujhpr itna yakin h ki unhone to pehle hi soch liya h ki meri beti mujhe beta bankr dikhayegi. Meri l...